What I Do Between the Words

The stock of the rifle is hand-selected walnut.
I polish it with a soft cloth and occasionally
use linseed oil.

I dust a porcelain lady
twice a week. She does not need my attention, 
but I give it.

My Nikon needs to be taken out of its case,
otherwise it may turn into a blind
coal-black memory.

I pick up a quartz crystal and sigh,
At least once a fortnight.
The sigh does not mean anything
unless you think ‘sighs’ mean anything.

When the black dog returns,
I drive out at night
with no aim or destination.
The 'dog' must be driven somewhere,
and left on the edge of a highway.

I go to the Oriental grocery emporium
each month to therapy-browse.
Sometimes I buy a paste or a sauce
not having a clue how to use them.
Cooking into the unknown
is my space travel.

These things I do are tramlines,
a navigability that gets me back
to a place where I can write a poem
with no black dogs attached -
no one likes a failing sun.

These things I do are rituals 
for the safe-side of my mind.


~~

(‘Black-dog’ is a euphemism for depression).
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Michael Avatar
October 29, 2019 at 6:26 AM
I can't claim to understand depression, but I can see from the things you do...you have it under control...You made me wonder...
Ashford Avatar
October 29, 2019 at 6:33 AM
Thanks again Arturo, many have drug-free ways of dealing with the 'black dog.' Cheers!
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