What For

By tommyleerage WITHIN THIS FIRE LAYERS FLAKE AND PEEL AWAY FLAMES LICK AT ME GREEDILY, EVEN AS WORDS FLAY "I" , DIMINISHED, LONGED TO BE FINISHED, EVEN TO DIE "THEY" HAD MADE IT OKAY TO BE ME, NOW ALONE, I CRY I NOW TRY TO BE A BETTER DAD, NOT A BETTER MAN I THINK I UNDERSTAND BETTER, WHAT A WINNER NEVER CAN I AM A MAN, ALIVE THROUGH THE GRACE OF GOD ABOVE I REGRET OCCASIONAL WORDS AND ACTIONS, NEVER LOVE LOVE IS WHAT MADE ME MORE THAN MERELY "ME" I USED TO BE AN INTEGRAL PART OF A FAMILY I'VE GOTTEN A LITTLE BETTER, YET SO MUCH LESS NOW TO BE A BETTER DAD, AS A BETTER MAN I KNOW HOW APART FROM THEM I'M MEANINGLESS, ADRIFT WITH NO EXCUSE CAN'T KEEP MY SPIRITS UP, IT'S NO USE THOUGH I AM FREE OF THE STAINS OF THE PAST I THINK I'VE LOST, OH THE COST OF THOUGHTLESS STONES I'VE CAST WE WERE NIETHER WITHOUT WRONG, BUT THAT'S MEANINGLESS BY MY FAMILY I WAS ONCE INFINITLY BLESSED I REMEMBER FONDLY, EVEN AGGRAVATING THINGS AND ONLY I AM SUBJECT TO MY OPINIONS STINGS WHAT I KNOW NOW, THE WHY, THE HOW, THE "WHAT" I WILL USE TO BECOME MORE TRULY ME, FOR THEY... ARE "WHAT FOR"