Weighted too long

somebody lies in wait it may be me, it may be me whilst all intangibles permeate I'll feel different, momentarily just wait, just wait I am too scared to be face to face with fate, oh that I hate but I see round corners despite mists that obfuscate though not into the future let me sit in peace, remove this weight I'll just wait, knowing there's a trap then all too late as I lay baited and blamed pre-emptedly ashamed for I could sit still no one would mind but my mind, that won't hibernate any more I wait here, just inside the door as I forget already unsteady, heavy I'll rest before I deal with the end of time tiring from the chair to there guided back, willingly I know I don't want to go? oh, I don't want to go I need to sit with peace see if I'd return from that place rather than rest in-between heart ache and heart break until the fault shifts somebody lies in wait wait wait wait wait wait I can't recall this