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The year dear Callie - my best cat ever - fell victim to cancer, she had lived 18 wonderful years as queen of our house, for sweetly did that calico rule our hearts. I’d realized too late her decline, so she couldn’t be saved. Selfishly I did not want to let her go, so for several months I was giving her pain killers, but I could tell they didn’t work well, for she wailed sometimes at night or would vanish underneath our bed. We knew this couldn’t go on, so we took her to the vet’s. As she was being put to sleep, all I could do was hold her little paw and stroke her head and weep. Some years later, we adopted a black cat with green eyes with fur so exceedingly soft that I felt I was stroking beauty. Though not too affectionate like Callie, she was sweet and refined. We never knew her age, and possibly she was old when diabetes sadly claimed her. A remedy I found online which seemed to help her, yet she remained only half her previously hefty size. Her distance from us she began to keep. Later she convulsed; it seemed she’d had a stroke. While the vet administered the injection to put her to sleep, I petted that fur which once had felt as smooth as velvet, and all I could do was weep. At last my husband found a cute puppy part Australian Shepherd, a breed of dog he has always liked. For his chocolate and caramel markings, I named him Snickers. For seven years Snickers has been with us, even on a few road trips. Two months ago he developed a reverse sneeze for which the vet told us to give him Benadryl. A month later he began making different kinds of unusual noises, sometimes almost seeming to choke; this greatly concerned us. We had no choice but to use an urgent care center where we were told his vitals were very good and antibiotics should do the trick. A month later his strange sounds and breathing persisted. My husband was getting ready to take him somewhere for a more thorough exam while I went away for vacation with family. Yesterday I received some shocking news. My spouse walked into a kitchen spattered with blood. Our poor dog was sneezing and coughing up blood. Somehow my spouse managed to get our dog into the office of our regular veterinarian. I waited nervously for news, but the dog needed tests at a better facility farther away. More waiting! Finally I got the call that a tumor was discovered in one of Snickers’ nostrils. It’s likely he has nasal cancer, which is rare. As I sit here relating this sad news, my mind goes back to the night before I left on my trip and how I recall looking into the big brown eyes of my loving dog as he lay there simply staring at me, not even making a sound. I thought he was getting better! Thoughts swirl in my mind. Will they be able to remove the tumor? Is it malignant? Usually such tumors are. For his breed, our dog is almost old. How will my husband deal with something for which we will have no real answers until a week from now? On the phone last night with my husband, I could hear tears in his voice. I fear a third dear pet of ours will need to be put to sleep. Oh the heartbreak in my husband’s voice as he tried so hard not to weep. Nov. 24, 2021 For the “W” New Poems contest of Constance La France Theme 5: weep

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Date: 11/30/2021 11:44:00 AM
I have through my life loved and lost many cats and dogs. They just don't ever seem to live long enough. A ten year old dog is considered at the end of his life. No matter how long they live it's just never long enough. It's like losing a child. My heart goes out to you in your loss. God Bless my friend. JB
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Date: 11/30/2021 9:52:00 AM
I'm sure almost everyone can relate to the sadness of losing a pet. It seems you have always had both a cat and a dog, so you have been subject to many instances of saying goodbye to a dear friend. I wish you and Joe all the best with Snickers. Congrats for your win with this very emotional write ~ John
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Date: 11/30/2021 3:25:00 AM
Our female Chihuahua passed in May of this year but we did not have to put her down she died around 5 or 6 A.M. one morning of natural causes. I can feel your pain but I don't know the extent of your pain only that I cry with you. Congrats on your winning work. Seems like I remember when you got the dog. Sara
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Date: 11/29/2021 1:39:00 PM
Andrea, congratulations on your First Place in my "W" New Poems Contest. Your poem is beautiful penned and so emotional, I know this pain of losing a treasured pet ~ love and serenity _Constance
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Date: 11/29/2021 1:43:00 AM
Oh! This is really sad, Andrea, having lost many dogs and hens, I can understand the pain of losing your pet... hope you get some good news about Snickers..
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Date: 11/28/2021 5:43:00 AM
Hi Andrea, you tell it like it is. Having had 21 cats and two dogs, i have been through tthe rigor of their final days. One of cats cancer treatments cost 5 thousand dollars. She was a gorgeous Norwegian Forest cat. I was sure the treatment would work. She died! Irene is home waiting for me. Best wishes, Pangie
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Date: 11/26/2021 10:38:00 PM
This is so sad... I can very well relate to your feelings. I never had any special love for dogs, but when 'Tippu', a dachshund came to our house, in a few day's time he became a member of our family and when he left us after eight years we literally wept . I feel for you Andrea !
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Date: 11/26/2021 10:03:00 PM
if i wur hosting this contest my poesy friend and long time acquaintance, i would certainly weep with you; likewise with your Hubby, and confidently rush this write to the top of the 'not naughty', 'yet nice' list! (Az the "soup nazi" himself i'm certain would say...no coal for you! You have a great day Andrea..much love, james
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Date: 11/26/2021 9:07:00 PM
Can relate to this, sad poem, having no siblings when young, i grew up with my dog Lassie and cat Dinky. Hope your news is good. Harry
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Date: 11/26/2021 3:56:00 PM
Andrea, this is so heart breaking~our pets are a part of our family and losing them is such a blow. I wish I had words to comfort you, but I know there are no words that can take away the sorrow. Blessings, Paulette
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 7:30:00 PM
Thanks, dear
Date: 11/26/2021 12:31:00 PM
awww, heartbreaking but so tender & touching x
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Date: 11/26/2021 10:03:00 AM
I’m actually weeping, oh Andrea xxx
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Date: 11/26/2021 6:55:00 AM
Aww Andrea this is such sad news about snickers, thinking of you and Joe, it must have been a devastating start to your holiday, hugs jan xx do keep me posted xx
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 7:26:00 PM
I hope to have news soon, jan
Date: 11/26/2021 1:20:00 AM
Dear Andrea, I am sad to hear this news of Snickers, It's so hard my thoughts are with Joe Also' let's hope there is good news at last God bless..'
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 7:23:00 PM
Thanx. I am waiting for news
Date: 11/25/2021 7:57:00 PM
Painful and sad, Andrea, emotions so deeply penned, as always. Congrats on your win
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Date: 11/25/2021 11:43:00 AM
Andrea, i also had to weep reading your sad verses about your so loved pets. We had a Dachshund who we got when I was seven and she died of cancer when I was almost 22, she was pedigreed so we had to give her a famous persons or regal name, named her Queen Katerina of Crete, but we called her Kitty. Coco my brown beautiful green eyed Labrador, i have written a poem which is amongst my best ' Hello and Goodbye Coco.' I also cried when they died - I feel for you my friend. Hugs & Blessings Jenn.
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 7:16:00 PM
Thanks and so sorry for loss of your beloved dog
Date: 11/25/2021 4:51:00 AM
Emotive write Andrea. Your poem speaks eloquently of heartbreaks that we all face when a beloved pet dies. Sending thoughts of goodwill your way.
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Date: 11/25/2021 2:42:00 AM
Oh Ria...though initially I was happy to see you posting poems during your vacation, am sad to hear what had happened to Snickers...I still remember our conversations before you left for your vacation when you said you were so worried about Snickers and his illness...oh my, this is heartrending ...if only there is a way to save dear Snickers...I hope you are happy there meeting your sisters and mom...and wishing you a very happy Thanksgiving sweet friend...FAving this...Hugs...~ Ani
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 7:08:00 PM
I will tell you more when his biopsy comes back. Thanks for all your good wishes
Date: 11/25/2021 2:13:00 AM
So sad Andrea, it really hurts losing a beloved pet...Delice
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Date: 11/25/2021 1:17:00 AM
This is our destiny, whether human or animal, we all have to die and weep. A great poem. Best for a win. Hugs.
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Date: 11/24/2021 10:11:00 PM
So sad when you lose pets; you have reflected this well my friend.
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Date: 11/24/2021 4:04:00 PM
I think a pet can sense a persons love for them. It may not heal them, but at least they are comforted. We all have our time here and no one knows when or why it ends. life is precious and it is a gracious thing to care for those in need. Kudos to you and your husband. Bill
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 6:55:00 PM
Thank you , Bill
Date: 11/24/2021 3:53:00 PM
Hello Andrea, this is such a sad poem. it brings tears to my eyes as I read this poem. Because on Monday Maggie my sister's dog was [put down. She was 14 years old. Hugs. It is hard to lose a pet. They are part of the fanily.
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Darlene De Beaulieu
Date: 11/27/2021 11:06:00 AM
Hello Andrea, thank you Andrea. Hugs.
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 11/26/2021 6:53:00 PM
So sorry, dear