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Waning Time

this waning moon resembles a sliver of hope dimly lit where the millesimal of memories of you descend over me as i stand at your grave in remembrance this day at the juncture of life as it's fading in the shadows of death whereas a tear has more momentum than the pendulum of the clock as it falters in slow motion a repetitive beat as one watches each struggled breath from a chest rest before the next rise that never comes when bereft of life wary through tear filled eyes at the crux of time one watches the stillness of silence in the voids through the facets of light refracting back a multitude of hands checking for a pulse as they note the very second life succumbed a walk down the long passageway past rooms with a thousand doors closed to your muffled screams somehow arriving home as if guided perhaps by disbelief with no recollection of how you even got there yet you feel the same emptiness now as then in the quickened pulse as memories open mind's doors to the countless moments you can never forget January 22, 2020 *in honor of what would have been my mom's 80th birthday this day, she passed at 55.... melding muses contest sponsored by Craig Cornish

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Date: 2/16/2020 12:49:00 AM
Sandra, glad to see this one finished so high in the contest. Another read, another tear. Congrats and hugs ~ John
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Date: 2/16/2020 4:59:00 PM
thank you so much John...hugs
Date: 2/15/2020 6:45:00 PM
Bravo, Sandra. A most deserving podium finish. Awesome tribute to a mother lost in her youth.
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Date: 2/16/2020 4:58:00 PM
Thank you so much Line...it's something you always see as clear as that day... hugs
Date: 1/28/2020 11:56:00 AM
wonderful ode to a Mother
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Date: 1/29/2020 11:14:00 AM
Thank you so much Gerard :)
Date: 1/25/2020 5:15:00 AM
A wonderful sad and well crafted poem and tribute to your mom dear Sandy - always heartbreaking when we lose a loved one. Blessings and love my friend, Jennifer.
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Date: 1/25/2020 4:34:00 PM
Thank you so much Jennifer... death or loss is never easy but something we must all face at some point in life...hugs and blessings...
Date: 1/25/2020 2:02:00 AM
So sad Sandra, so profound, so much here i can relate to,
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Date: 1/25/2020 4:31:00 PM
Thank you Harry.... sorry that you can relate to this... it's something one can never erase from memory... hugs
Date: 1/24/2020 1:39:00 PM
Poignant and heartrending write, my poet friend. Relationships with our parents are often complicated. She's lucky to have had you there to not spend her waning moments alone. Love the opening line of this, but too many powerful words and phrases in this to mention them all. Thank you for putting your heart on your sleeve, and helping us all to cope with the mysterious dragon of death. Hugs ~ John
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Date: 1/25/2020 4:30:00 PM
Thank you so much John, it wasn't easy but having those memories i guess i was glad to be there... what a kind thing to say... hugs
Date: 1/24/2020 8:56:00 AM
Congrats! Thanks for sharing this. God bless you.
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Date: 1/25/2020 4:29:00 PM
Thank you so much Beata :) hugs and blessings!
Date: 1/24/2020 8:18:00 AM
"wary through tear filled eyes at the crux of time one watches the stillness of silence in the voids" - this is so telling and tender. It is nice to think of your mother reading this, for I am sure she is.
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Date: 1/25/2020 4:28:00 PM
Thank you so much Caren... perhaps she did get to read it... hugs
Date: 1/23/2020 5:03:00 PM
Sorry about your mother. Well written --- your angst comes through and I can tell this is from the heart. Poetic hugs.
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Date: 1/23/2020 6:15:00 PM
Thank you Juliet...it was long ago, but seems impossible that it was 25 years ago....i remember it like it was yesterday... hugs
Date: 1/23/2020 9:56:00 AM
Very stirring write Sandy, you opened the door to your memories and let us in. Sorrow continues even when we're not close to them. I'm so impressed how you easily forgive and move on with life. A great example of compassion!
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Date: 1/23/2020 10:24:00 AM
Thank you so much John...i forgave i suppose because she was my mother, and i always wanted that bond...but being the one with her watching her decline as i put my own life on hold and watching the final hour, final seconds...it's something i can never erase from memory ... hugs
Date: 1/23/2020 9:44:00 AM
A deep pain, the loss of a mother. No age that she’s lost is the pain any better. Same goes for a child. Be blessed.
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Date: 1/23/2020 10:22:00 AM
Thank you Kim...i agree...yesterday was her birthday, but a close friend of mine mourned yesterday for her son, it was his date of death anniversary...i have a hard time comforting her on this one day...usually i am the one to pick her up on holidays and his birthday but this day already pains me... hugs and blessings
Date: 1/23/2020 7:45:00 AM
How could one forget the passing of a person who is synonymous to love and affection? Certainly one cannot especially that of a mother! An uplifting tribute so well written dearest, Sandra! An excellent piece of writing! Hugs xxx
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Date: 1/23/2020 10:20:00 AM
so very true Demetrios... it will always remain in memory as if it happened today... thank you for your kind words :) hugs
Date: 1/23/2020 4:56:00 AM
Still you conveyed that emotions as if gone yesterday.. If poet become sad he will flood the world with sadness.. especially you.. Beautiful lines...
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Date: 1/23/2020 5:09:00 AM
Thank you Jenish... it’s something you can never forget ... I can see the whole scene as If it were yesterday... huge
Date: 1/22/2020 8:59:00 PM
Beautiful poem, Sandy. My mom passed at the age of 59 so I can relate to this. Your mom is smiling up there :) Happy birthday to your mom in heaven. Hugs Charlie
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Date: 1/23/2020 5:07:00 AM
Sorry to hear that Charlie ... so young to lose them ... thank you for your visit and wishes :) hugs
Date: 1/22/2020 7:45:00 PM
So sad my friend... Kind thoughts and prayers to you. You are truly blessed to have had her at least until then... My adopted mom was everything to me. I totally get this poem. Lovely thoughts, beautiful words. Ann
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Date: 1/22/2020 7:56:00 PM
Thank you my friend... truth is i never really had a relationship with her until she got ill, then she wanted me to care for her...i did because she birthed me...but to watch her die is something i will never forget...i remember everything about that moment and the moments leading to that last breath...sadly... hugs
Date: 1/22/2020 7:44:00 PM
Losing someone is never easy. In time we learn not so much to mourn, but to celebrate their lives. Although we miss them and it hurts at times. Remembering their lifetime achievements, those lessons and blessings with which they graced our lives, those things they passed on to us become their legacy. We become their legacy and they live on through us in hopeful remembrance. Hug to you dear Lady
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Date: 1/22/2020 7:53:00 PM
thank you... her and i were never close when i was growing up but then when she found out she had cancer, she wanted to make amends being the person i am...i put the past behind and became her caretaker ... her death affected me because she gave me life... her mother was my rock (my mom-mom) i lost her when i was 9, she wasn't much older than my mom when she passed... death is a part of life we all must deal with....hugs
Date: 1/22/2020 2:11:00 PM
This is beautiful, condolences.
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Date: 1/22/2020 6:43:00 PM
Thank you so much M.L. :) hugs....
Date: 1/22/2020 1:28:00 PM
Your passion-filled pen pulls right into your Mom's passing as if it happened just now. Spectacular write, Sandy. Your mother is proud of you, I am sure. Best wishes, Gershon
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Date: 1/22/2020 6:42:00 PM
Thank you Gershon...i guess it's a moment i will never forget...i still remember so many details from that day up until the very last breath...as well as what she did and said withing the moments prior that made me certain there is an afterlife...hugs
Date: 1/22/2020 1:16:00 PM
Well written Sandra, I'm sure your mom would be so proud of your writing. Tom
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Date: 1/22/2020 6:40:00 PM
Thank you Tom... family, most, except my kids, never knew of my writing... i preferred it that way... hugs
Date: 1/22/2020 11:56:00 AM
Every verse evokes melancholy--just the same as your heart feels--a heartfelt tribute in sad memories. Splendidly done, Sandy. Hope you find peace and comfort.
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Date: 1/22/2020 12:06:00 PM
Thank you so much Vijay... to watch someone die is something you never forget... especially a parent or other close family member.... hugs
Date: 1/22/2020 11:42:00 AM
A sad piece for one you lost and still there is a beauty to your words that is enchanting as it is sorrowed. Beautifully done Sandy
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Date: 1/22/2020 11:49:00 AM
Thank you so much Chris... close or not...whenever this date approaches i can't help but think of her... an array of memories flood my mind... some pretty some not so much but... hugs

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