Waiting For a Hero

I spent so much time waiting for a hero, hoping for someone to save me Someone to mend my heart, a kind soul to take me A beautiful person to talk to me and keep me safe I wasted so many years waiting for a hero, but this whole time he had a familiar face Tears on the pillow of the bed I lay on Flashbacks of memories I wish I could forget Breaking down because I've held it in for so long Smiling for the world because I don't want them to see I'm a mess Empty Brandy Bottles, I shouldn’t have poured in a glass Rereading old texts from a girl who I miss a lot Listening to love songs, with the volume at full blast Suicidal urges, But it's because I just want the pain to stop Courage to fight through this, even if it's slowly Taking each day at a time as I begin to work on myself Try to let go of my self doubt as I hold my pen closely I've had people abandon me, but the pen has always been the first to help Battling depression for 12 years and I'm still fighting Spent nights crying alone but I made it through I still need to repair my wings before I can start flying But I'm talking to the man in the mirror saying this is the stage for you I Lost people I adored, But I still stand me I recovered from the wound, Even though my loyalty and love ran deep My heart was genuine and love was real, so I realised the problem was not me I thought I lost them, but it turns out that they lost me I used to crave a hug or goodnight kiss from my dad I would hope that my mother would put the drink down a family is something I never had I lost many things, but the hero has been found I spent so much time waiting for a hero to save me Someone to mend my heart, someone to bring me to safety a soul that would be caring and treat me kind Little did I know, I've been my own hero this whole time