Vulnerable

I was hidden so long, I was so so carefully concealed, like the young of a mother deer left alone in the field. I was frightened powerless, unsteady. Tried to lift myself on my feet, wobbly. I tried to be strong, well aware of my delicacy. Have the courage the size of a lion's, flimsy. It is no use, I said myself to me. Enemies can smell my fear from a mile maybe even two or three. I transformed my weakness to power, what was exposed I covered and what was in the open, I concealed. I adapted myself to my surroundings til I felt at home in that field. Until I saw you, you knew it was deception. You saw past my pretense and showed me affection. I was rugged, durable, made of steel. I'm unprotected, defensless, ready to yield. I was protected, guarded, I'm terrified, vulnerable, susceptible, I want you to be mine. I needed to prove to myself of what I was capable. But underneath it all I will always be vulnerable.