Voiced Thoughts

I'm confused Who exactly is the right one? The one I'm with is slowly falling for another The ones I don't want treat me like an empress I'm unhappy and yet still stuck up on this It's right there in my heart A vacuum I've always believed is a space that now you hold How do I even start to fight? Sometimes it gets peaceful when he's not there And when he is,well.. can't call me insecure I'm thinking things through Mostly about how much longer till I can end things Wanting to leave with no regrets But, am I really falling for another? Cos it'd always be a shock,that I for one Am willing to let it go And then, there comes the doubled effort To get me to see how my world's slowly been made To totally revolve around you and do your wishes It hurts too when you say the craziest things to my face It hurts to know that I'm not doing enough It hurts to know that I'm still very lacking Bro, whatever happened to loving those flaws What happened to loving you some me What happened to commitment? Yo! just tell me what happened to perfect? It's ringing over and over in my head But what good is this love if you're at your very best When the other person's had just about enough of it's least? When I'm not with you, it sure feels like an escape Into the fading memories of what true happiness feels like I'm not the one the whole world hears about I doubt even your friends know I exist But it's fine, I've totally managed to pull through all these years Babe, and I bet many more are dying to be called this You're literally an object of envy to many guys out there Who are willing to do the unimaginable to get me To give them even half the love that I've ever shown you Cos even that, when returned is enough to sustain any happy marriage How exactly did we get to this point? I'm made to believe I've wasted a few long years In this delusion of forced happiness Should've listened when my friends called me crazy Truly, it's not right when that word defines love Cos we'd surely get blinded by the ever shallow demands of pretence A pseudonym for that word called love Now, I'd slowly give you what you've always wanted But this time, I'd make sure you feel the throes of anguish That I once felt for innocently giving my heart I promise that you're going to beg Oh, you'd so beg for what I once freely gave And then I'd throw you right out the door Into the world, and sure as hell out of my life!