Unwanted Memories

Unwanted Memories As my head hits my pillow and I try to sleep My mind starts to dwell on past secrets I keep Of the hurt and the pain through all my years And my eyes start to cry my own salty tears Though I really do try not to dwell on my past Deep in my mind thoughts come through thick and fast And whatever I do to distract my brain Still the unwanted memories are here once again Unwanted memories of you Haunt my days and night times too The hurt and the pain from my past Will be with me 'till I breathe my last As my eyes close to try to stop thoughts getting through I then get assaulted by pictures of you And try as I might you will not go away I'm so worn out from fighting this day after day When I finally give in and fall off to sleep At the point where the sleeping begins to get deep So the terrors begin and I relive again All the bad and the fear mingled with pain Unwanted memories of you Haunt my days and night times too The hurt and the pain from my past Will be with me 'till I breathe my last Now I'm living my life always haunted by you You invade my day times whatever I do I need to find out the best way for me To keep unwanted memories under lock and key Though I'm living my life I feel it passing by Endlessly fighting and wondering why I feel bound by your chains always drawing me back I'm wary and frightened of your next attack My confidence left long ago The pain I feel is what I show Life's a shell of what it should be Release your chains, set my life free. Unwanted memories of you Haunt my days and night times too The hurt and the pain from my past Will be with me 'till I breathe my last Jane Shields (C)