Unwanted Life

Why do I hate myself, my life overall It seems as if happiness was my first downfall Then pain and criticism seemed to follow Is it possible for a man’s heart to be so hollow My vales shallow, my dreams long gone Since my birth date my life has never seen the sun Never known the meaning of fun, or the true meaning of my being alive If I want to live is what I’m trying to decide All my life I have denied, these feelings of insecurity Intriguingly, I can always seem to find Someone who: thinks I'm special, so truly divine And I always wonder how you could love a face like mine But I live my life afraid and ashamed Disgraced at how I look, even how my body’s framed It’s as if I was trained, to find the negative in all Never do I have anything positive to recall For my mind is full of hate and my heart full of shame There is no one but myself to blame Because when I search in my soul all I seem to find Is a young man’s life running out of time