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How to be real with urself?
What is keeping me here?
Love or happiness?
My love for her spans 12 years
Memories are abundant
Good times & bad
We have lost a child to God
Guilt for wanting to leave fills my soul
I feel that her attraction for me has been lost
My attraction towards other women grows
The affect a divorce would have on my children
The pain that decision would create
Is it worth it, for me to be happy again?
Part of me still wants to stay
That part is fighting to see the light
Every day it feels like I am drowning
As humans we crave love and the contact of another human
A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush
U already have one that is for sure
Should I risk trying to catch the others in the bush?
Constant internal battle
Loving who she was
Not loving who she has become
I have changed also
Not for the better in all aspects
Many mistakes have been made on both sides
She struggles to keep our family running smoothly
I struggle to make sure bills r paid
She wants more
I want more
Niether of us will admit it to the other
Sex has become none existant
My sympathy for her feelings is fading
My guilt for wanting to leave grows
My children stay in my thoughts
Will they hate me?
Will they still think I'm a "good" dad?
Would they see me differently?
Am I a coward?
Is there a right time to let go?
How long should u fight for hope?
All these questions and no answers given
Tomorrow brings more of the same
Copyright © Memphis Stacks | Year Posted 2020
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