Unrequited Love, a Soliloquy

To love someone who no longer loves you is the cruelest trick played by the world. I didn’t know you wanted me that way, I thought you only cared for my body, so I found another who seemed to want a connection. I should’ve told you then how I love you so, I wish I had known you felt the same. My best friend, my love, the only one to make me feel understood, I am so deeply sorry for not taking a chance sooner. A friend told me after you disappeared that you loved me, and my eyes welled with silent tears. I had loved you for so long, believing that you couldn’t love me too. Now you’ve found another, someone who brings you joy. She’s so beautiful, she’s the one you want, her kind eyes are softer, more loving than mine. Losing in love, in life, in joy, it drains you and takes your light away from you. I long to be the one you want, someone you adore, but I don’t deserve that anymore. I didn’t ask how you felt, not in the way I wanted to, and went to the arms of another, not knowing what I was losing. I’ve loved you for a year now, you’ve never once left my mind, my heart, my very soul. The poems, the stories, the darkness you inspired, I poured them all on pages, desperately trying to rid myself of them. My love, I am truly forever yours, even if I’m far. Even if we are separated, even though you are no longer mine. My hand will always reach for yours, you’ve forever changed me, and not a single soul could ever be you. I’m sorry for the way I left you, I’m sorry for being naive, and most of all for ignoring your light.