Unprecedented Life - Chapter 1 - I Recall Suddenly

Dear God and Creator, “Sometimes, I wish that I had a pirate ship of my own,” – I recall me saying a long time ago Crazy of me to have dreams when I am, well, all alone…the wind is blowing to and fro In a gleam of an eye, I see shadows pass me by, I can’t deny An unprecedented life has given me gratitude from on high I felt foolish the moment you looked me in the eyes…You’ve heard my cries I know that I’ve been a wreck from the start But, God forgives me for all of my sins and my negativity surely dries Thank you, Lord, for everything that You’ve done Thank you, family, for making me who I am today Battles of peace have begun in the light of the sun Don’t worry, I’m feeling okay as long as you’re here with me someday… Sitting here in a daydreaming moment… I see galaxies of glory burst before my sight I have dreamt in dread, but now I’m content I can’t believe I feel so much…with all my might I was soaring in the dazzling universe Of Your delightful, untainted verse I’m sorry for my lusts, I’m sorry for my passions They are worldly, I know…but give me some more compassions Feeling fine and dandy – an independent chap that’s all I’m hearing His call – please don’t let me fall Into the black hole of my demise I was foolish, but now I seek the wise Please don’t let me be Please don’t let me see My end because my beginning Is gonna be another winning Not only for me, But everyone else Can’t you see? Cheerfulness are painted on these shimmering shells Bless you, God Most High I was born not to be shy I am braver than a thousand men in silvery armor I will show them my infinity, eloquent fervor Grace be to the happy of heart I’m so relieved I’m not torn apart I’m having these manias of marvelousness Shatter away my utter distress – ah, I’m not a mess I can’t wait for a unprecedented life That has nothing to do with strife All the agony I once felt is now gone On and on, I will tread this Road of Abode I will rely on You and Your gracious son, Practically vibrant with symmetry It’s beyond, you know, brilliant really Whatever you say, say it with elegance I want you to see His relevant radiance His Holy Spirit is unexplainably delectable I’m no longer this worthless, unstable table Have faith in brighter days I have plead for Your praise And I’ve begged you several times to forgive me for my weaknesses Replace them with strengths and surely, I’ll be like those geniuses Well, maybe I’m a bit of a delusional daydreamer, But You get my drift, whoever is a true Believer I speak for knowledge’s sake and for its sake only I shouldn’t be cast down and considered the “lonely” Because I am the creator of my own movie Believe it or not, I might sound like a phony Darling angel, I still love someone I shouldn’t love Sometimes, I don’t know what I think of Because I lost my train of thought every time I speak… The words I utter are so bleak…not-so-sleek to say the least – I’m a unique kind of geek I praise God – not always, but I praise Him here and there And, frankly, I don’t mind feeling this all-too-familiar despair I want to praise Him always, but there’s always something missing… Like…I don’t belong…it’s like a doorbell without a ding-dong It can’t be mended like a flick of a finger… At least I know more of right from wrong…maybe, I am in the wrong? I’m this unpopular, obnoxious singer… And I ain’t no “Belieber”…let me just point that out right off the bat I have a day-dreamer…I get flustered when my dreams don’t come true – why’s that? Hm…I wonder sometimes actually come to think of it Is it because I throw this childlike, unpleasant fit? Maybe I overthink things through Perhaps, one day, I will not be blue… God, help me, God knows I’ve tried… I didn’t mean to lie in Your face, saying “I promise I won’t do it again” There are no other places to hide, are there? I don’t care how much it hurts…just get it over with Get over yourself – it’s your fault I’m like this… That heart of mine is the wicked schemer Oh Lord, I’m still Your faithful believer Just don’t listen to the demon inside It’s that sickening, silent little pride… Humility sure can play a good role in my life… Hopefully, if I keep my fingers crossed, it will give me… That unprecedented life that I’ve asked for for many years… I’m sick and tired of weeping these tears…no one got the ears… To hear what I got to say, so I isolate myself…I’m sorry for my dismay…I guess I was all by myself… I’m sorry I’ve let You down…