Unmet Dreams

I remember just a few years ago I remember me feeling so excited I couldn't resist smiling I couldn't resist thinking of my future Today I'm going to be honest Honest with you and Honest with myself I have never archived much I have never enhanced my life Life has been hard for me to Override Listening to sad Soul music Has been my life for a decade Pure hate Pure misery I remember Beating myself up with shame So much hate it wouldn't go away So much tears my pillow became wet So I would hide from my mother I remember clicking at everyone It's just feels like yesterday Well honestly I still am angry, Don't worry you wouldn't understand Do you know ? Do you know how it feels like? Going to bed with a sore heart Who am I kidding ? I am just a boy who was ment to sleep at the kitchen I guess you are wondering Yes life has gobbled up my SOUL I feel HELPLESS PLEASE HELP ME. I lost my pride very recently Thanks to my life I have nothing to lose Thanks to God for bieng angry at me I understand nor I did nothing wrong May my SOUL regain sound through Music and time, I doubt it . Do you know Do you know how it's like to be the only one in the family without a job Do you know how it's like to be begging in prayer Crying from the inside I PRAY For I have realized that I am the PROBLEM HERE it's hard bieng a burden to Mom and sis but I have no choice I have no one to turn to I have again realized that without a soul I can't be living But I am ,I wonder how ? I remember bieng in hospital Laying there in bed I felt different I felt like the torture was over The hate was over The rumors were over I felt like I was in a quiet place Where nothing matters No thoughts just me and the dark No hurt ,no pain I still feel it when I hold my breath It's me "Him" he who God does not know Him who has no degree but a matric certificate He who is jobless at time flies by He who is a stranger to many Undermined by many But hey I'm okay with that It's my life I'm used to that Actually NO ,I'm not OKAY I FEEL LIKE CRYING CRYING UNTIL THE OCEAN SPEAKS TO ME CRYING UNTIL I BLEED CRYING UNTIL I BECOME weak Until ... God knows what . Unmet Dreams. Based on a true story.