Unattractive

Male advances make me feel attractive but I hate male advances I wonder why no one gives me any chances to love or to be loved so I feel ugly inside even though my outer appearance can easily hide it the pain never really subsides I promote productivity and each and every day I give all I can give but I grow cold inside because love still doesn't reside where I live. Green lights turn to yellow and yellow turns to red and I worried that I'll never find love before I am dead.