Unattractive

I used to think it was kind of selective: A certain type, A certain size, certain eyes. But when he left I learned it was all just a buffet. Anything as long as it was female. More attractive than me or less. Just to get in them pants. I think he likes the chase; The flirtious nature in which all girls tend to approach him with. Noone's off limits. Least of all my friends. I'm the only one whose been crossed off the list. Since ex-girl friend land I don't even get a glance. I used to be his one and only. Now there's so many that I started feeling kinda of numb. Now I know I shouldn't feel the way I do cause cause guys try to wife me everyday. I hardly have any insecurities and I don't need a mirror to know that i'm pretty. It's just that I used to think it was kind of selective: A certain type, A certain size, certain eyes. But when he left I learned it was all just a buffet. Anything as long as it was female. Anything but me.... That lowers my self esteem tremendously. Knowing that i'm not what he wants; knowing that he'll never see me like he see's them; Knowing to him that i'm unattractive hurts more than you know.