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I I take multivitamins and diet pills Not to die Just enough to feel sick to not eat I I stick my fingers down my throat And nothing comes up but coughs and the remnants of last life’s self esteem And I I scratch and cut But now only faint scars remain I want more And I I walk alone at night Tempting someone to kill me But only loose some money and air And I I walk through life staring at my feet Or that girl’s thighs that don’t touch Or that one who looks like she’ll blow away in the wind Or that one coming back from the gym And I I don’t have the self-discipline And I I don’t deserve you And I I sit in tear less sobs Because I I can’t even cry right