Trying To Sleep

I’m trying to sleep but you’re always there when I close my eyes. I keep trying to forget. I keep trying not to cry. How am I suppose to carry on? Without you, I just don’t care if I live anymore. When I wake up you’re not there for me. Your good morning smile doesn’t shine anymore. I can see your lipstick on the pillow case. Your scent is still there. I woke up hoping I was dreaming, because you weren’t there again. There’s a bitter chill. The kind that deep freezes heart and soul. Is nothing in the world as it seems? I turnover and the bed is still. Now you’re only with me in my dreams. I wake up screaming. The tears won’t stop flowing. I wake up screaming. I hate knowing that you’re not going to be there in the morning. Why did you have to leave? I’m dying here in bed alone. I’m crying here in bed alone. I can’t sleep when you’ve left me here alone.