Transmutation

In human form I was born. In human frame I will stay, but for some other species, life doesn't transpire that way. A wiggly caterpillar transmutes into a wondrous creature when it emerges with beautiful wings as its best feature. I can't begin to imagine myself in an altered physical form and have my atoms rearranged, deviated from the norm. I wonder... if I entered another realm, in the spiritual sense, would I cast shadows or auras of light in bright effulgence? For the transfigured mind of my heart to be in mutual accord, first it must surrender the resident ego to receive its reward. Once I perceived answers to the bounty of questions asked, could I be transmuted again, or would my future be masked? Is it likely that my state of 'being' will be something to resist and query in what physiological sentience could I feasibly exist? I seek clarification about what happens in life as a transmutation. Is it even something I could fathom, given a plausible explanation? I don't wish to become a frog from tadpole, and egg hatched, because to my human body, I have become rather attached. First, I'd inquire if there is a reversion process after mutation that would rescind metamorphosis through a surgical ablation.