Tough Love

I want so much to cry , But my feelings I must conceal. Hold back the tears from my eyes And also this pain that I feel. It's already been over a year now, Why must I still dwell? Why can't I just let it go? And forget about how far I fell. Why can't I just get out there Then see what life brings up? Why must I always feel like Life for me is so rough? How come I'm not more like my dad? Able to shrug things off. I wonder if he truly does? Or if he acts hard trying to cover it up. Who could be with someone 10 years, Then have them ripped away? So unexpectedly and abruptly at that! Then just get over it in a day. I don't know anybody who could, And I would never wish that upon a soul. For without you here in my arms My world is dark and ever so cold Be stronger my father tells me! Now's not the time to cry! It's probably better off, he'd say Not having said goodbye. Do something with your life!my dad yells He may never come back anyway. Acting as though it was a relationship I'd had for only two days. Chin up soldier! You've had enough time! Get your act together already! If I were in your position rite now I wouldnt be walloping in my own self pity! You're probably better off anyhow, dad said. And everything happens for a reason. Now you can move forward from today And change men like the seasons But I don't want to move on without him! How could one be so cruel? I tell my dad, I'll wait for my man, He replies, you're the suffering fool!