Too Many Lost Orange Sunsets

Too many lost orange sunsets by Shane Cogan Oh why do I care Oh why do I still cry So many years I have lost crying over you So many lost words So many lost crimes Now a million times I keep thinking back to that last kiss Oh so long too many tears Why did you leave? Why did I never see it coming? Time after time, yet another one Cloud after cloud, I wept over you Tear after tear you crept back into my mind This has to stop, she said Why, oh why, can't I just not let go? Why, oh why must I not let it go? It just keeps coming back Again and again, brighter each time More orange, always on track I cant take it any longer I don’t want to see its image Too many years I have lost time over you Too many people Too many fallen stars Too many false hopes Too many lost tears Too many broken dreams Too many lost friends Why, oh why, can't I just not let go? Why, oh why must I not let it go? Here it comes again, the long lost orange sunset over the horizon I don’t want to see it I don’t want it in my head I just want to be that crazy-filled-happy-dizzy-weird person again Oh, just for one day Oh, just for one day not to see that image Leave my head let me live in peace Instead I return to bed I wish I could press release Instead here you come again A flash reminder, please go away Feels like a grinder, please go away Lost so many close ones Came so close to new ones Back you came, the hurt Back you came, the regrets This has to stop This has to end This cannot go on For ten years, year after year every new year, my lost years Why, oh why, can't I just not let go? Why, oh why must I not let it go? Finally a new crazed one maybe a chance family pressure friends measure I need to surrender I need to ease this pain I need to pretend instead I transcend Instead there it is again, oh no, oh no I continue to see the long lost orange sunset disappear for too many years Time after time, yet another one Cloud after cloud, I wept over you Tear after tear you crept back into my mind This has to stop, she said How much more can I take? Even a drug does not last this long Some find the cure, others a substitute A decade long chain A decade long stain A falling grey rain A new name A lost game A book of strain A flawed brain I need to regain I need to refrain And then it comes, my journey floats me away upwards, upwards, upwards... towards, towards, towards... upwards... and it all starts again and again.