Today

Today I received a card from an old friend. Always thought we be till the end. However, things had changed that we can't be. I don't understand why some people things work out for. While other's it doesn't always. I tried to hurt myself several years ago, no I don't want to now. I just don't understand why it always worked out for m y friend. She has everything she wants. She even wanted to cheat on her husband with an ex. I told her not to. I stopped being friends with her, due to it seemed like she was different. I couldn't even imagine her wanted to talk with that ex of her's again. I guess it seems like hurting and betray always makes me feel down. I don't know what to do. I forgive the people who hurt me, but I have also had to walk away from their friendship due they still wanted my ex in their lives. So I left that group. Not sure if it was the right thing to do, but I couldn't handle being around him anymore. So and there were lies to between some friends. Why does everything good happen to her even though these things happened that was done to me.