To This Day

To this day I still look back Back to the days of terror and dread I was afraid of what the days had to hold Always getting on the bus and feeling like I had Died and gone to an eternal hell *** loser and ***** those were some of the dozens of names they called me They felt like bitter barbs piercing my heart and soul People keep saying sticks and stones my brake my bones but words will never hurt me But that is an utter lie Lacerated flesh and broken bones can heal in time But words and names can crush someones heart and soul Changing who they are and what they will become Thats happened to thousands of children just like me And they thought they knew me They thought that they could just read me like an open book Those days those eternal days And those days turned to weeks to months to years Walking through the halls with all eyes looking down at me I could feel them I could feel the accursed eyes Their eyes bored into my soul ripping it out through the Dead heart in my chest Recess came but going outside meant certain death getting pushed into the dirt and kicked in the gut I grew up fearing the outside and the sun It was as if the sun was a black hole sucking all life into its void and emptiness Never going outside out of fear of all of the monsters and beasts armed with an arsenal of pain and destruction That inhabit the outside world So I stay inside my locked room cutting all of those my fears away Upon my upper arm the blood drips with the fear of others But those were not the deepest cuts Those were the cuts of the emotions that were the deepest For years that's how life was Until the day I made a friend A friend that would never give up on me That wouldnt let me fall He brought me from the darkest place And picked me up from the ground And to this day I shall never forget What that friend has done for me Through the time that he helped me through He taught me to love myself for who I am He taught me to ignore all the words And all the names Of all of the people who have the audacity To destroy and pick on someone who is different And to this day his lessons still push And still keep me going To love me for me And to know that they were all wrong So listen and take heed To the words that I have been saying Love you for you And dont fear the power of man Dont let them change you from who you are Stay true to yourself and the power that you hold And maybe in the days to come You can say with strength and pride "To this day I love me for me"