To My Appa

Whether to decide this or that Whether to trust someone or not Where to start a work How to end some task To show the new flower that bloomed To taste the new recipe that mom prepared To review my new poem To hear an old song in fm To scold me for doing naughty things While wearing new dress When I am depressed While getting anonymous calls While entering the mall While stepping alone While discussing plans While laughing at comedy scenes All we need is you, just you You have worked hard all your life, just to keep us safe All these years, you never made me feel inferior You never made me feel ashamed But today I feel so guilty And I feel ashamed of being a girl I wish I'd been born a boy It's been 9 months since you left us And if I were a boy child I would have done a ritual tomorrow I am the unluckiest girl in this world As I failed to protect you from the demon death And now an impotent to do anything to you Dedicated to my dad