To Lee: With Love, From Me

This one is going to hurt. That is why it has taken me so long to write it, Because a part of me still loves you And thought you would call or write me. I know you need your time; You have your process, and I respect it. But today, today, I was ready. I opened the drawers. I picked up your sweaters, This time not to smell it, But to fold it nicely and carefully place it in a box, The first of many items, ready to go, Because I am ready to let go. Let go of the hope that we could still be. I said my goodbyes to you slowly, thoughtfully, Letting every memory of every outing and every snuggle Flood my brain. And with every packed trouser, shirt, and pair of socks, I was able to smile and embrace Every memory with nostalgia and gratitude. You were with me through some of the toughest times in my life; We uplifted, loved, and encouraged one another for four years, And we loved through the laughter and the tears. As I pack your things, I no longer have fear. Yes, we have grown apart, But the memory of us will forever live in my heart. I am grateful for the time we shared, And am proud of who we are. Maybe in another life, we would have married and stayed merry, But in this one, I am filling boxes with your things. In this one, I can only cherish the moments we had As I say goodbye and wish you love, luck, and happiness. Happiness, I, too, know I will find. But know that a part of me will forever love you, And although my heart is heavy, today, I know I am ready. Yes, it did hurt, But in the process, it also healed. And the box is now sealed.