Timeline

Glimpses I am within a child’s eye of the past I wander about searching for my inner light He knocks at the door I tend to ignore stray away Like a lost puppy I am unsure of my own existence Blinks of happiness settle my twisted soul but they are merely blinks milliseconds in time that I can’t remember or choose to forget Shaky is the ground I stand on fearing my end I place myself within a fetal position wishing my life away with thoughts of disease and tears of rage Blind I am to the miracles he has shared with me Consumed I am by the past the unexplained timeline of my birth till today haunts my very core A reflection of a body of weakness called a man taunts me every waking hour unable to breath I sleep my life away wishing for more without working to earn a successful failure I fear to be Lonely is this soul that can’t see past the flaws in his rearview mirror time collapsing down on me running out of sand in the hour glass of my dream Searching for a glimmer of hope a happy medium within my inner demon cast aside in the eyes of society not a single tear for a troubled soul I wake each morning to the sound of strangers living under this same roof been here all my life but lost I am within the stubbornness of miscommunication Emotion non-existent In a so filmier place. I wonder how my kid will cope living in the same wreckage I have come to know Will he be able to rise above this rage and fairness we call life or will he perish within the masses of silence and negativity All I can do is hope All I can do is raise him right and share with him always what he means to me and this legacy of undiscovered successes.