Thoughts Inside My Head

Tonight I’m looking at the ones around Trying to land my feet on solid ground Sometimes I don’t even know If I know what that means Sometimes I don’t even know Who I’m meant to be There’s so many people On this earth There’s so much hurt From our birth Is love a thing to grasp Will victory ever last Cause things seem so dark from here Pain is all that’s near I pray for this empty space To be erased But no matter how much I scream I’m stuck in this evil dream I know in my heart what is true Yet it’s far from what I do I hear the stories Of the Savior’s glories But it all seems so distant I’m lost in the faded imprint My soul longs to follow the path But somewhere I’ve lost track This pain and heartbreak Is too much to take Nothing ever goes as planned Every day I question who I am My imperfections shine so bright Making me lose every fight Hiding the path laid out for me Masking the truth of what is to be The battle between grace and perfection Leaves me in question The angel and devil on my shoulder Is such a heavy boulder Lost in the fight of life Trapped within this strife People say what they think of me Who I ought to be My mother thinks I am strong And I need to be pushed along While others don’t even see The leader I want to be No ordinary part of life Has appealed to me College and careers Keeping up with the peers So much petty beauty And false duty Forget what others see I just want to be me I feel music in my veins Without it I’d be insane Love and romance is what I long for A wife to love forever more I crave to be the kind of man Strong enough to take a stand Future children will want to be like me Cause Christ is what they see in me I pray to God that I am saved Following the road Christ paved But I feel my failures all unfold Like the devil has always told Why is temptation so prevalent And truth is never relevant This country is going down the hole Like a man with a dying soul Does anything even matter anymore Are we just doomed from the core I refuse to believe I’ve been deceived These long nights in my bed I know religion is dead But Christ has risen from the grave For souls like mine to save I just need to rise above Know I am heaven’s dove People tell me I have it made I’ve been spoiled all my days While they don’t see my fight inside Every night I’ve cried Yet I know people have it so much worse There are reasons people curse People starve and cry And are left to die But I know I have my own struggle inside To deny that would be a lie Faith is hard no matter where you are Yet I know it’s something worth fighting for