This Time I Don'T Want To Let You Go

For awhile now I’ve thought mostly only Of memories of you and me I know what I feel In my heart for you Is that has always been Meant to be I faced my fears I cried my tears Over and over again Some think shouldn’t this Be your end You told him what you needed Why don’t you begin again? I want you to know this time I don’t want to let you go I try so hard To keep my mind busy This isn’t ever easy Depression sets in Sadness begins again And the wishing my Life would end Getting over you is something My heart won’t accept my brain send Then a new day Brings in a ray of light And a hope and prayer That I haven’t lost sight That sometimes you have to fight For the feelings you believe To be right You don’t give in This one you may Actually win Pushing everything aside again Is a sin Live now and go for broke Cause this time I don’t want to let you go Yes I know damn good and well You may be avoiding me But still I can’t Just let this be I’ve come to see All I’ve done wrong And all I’ve done right Thus far in my life Perhaps now it’s your fears That you need to face Fight back those tears Capture that grace Seems like it’s you That now needs to re-trace Where you’ve been and How the hell you got there Where you are today I know you are, because I am to Still scared Terrified of the unknown I believe this time we’re ready All seeds have been sewn We as people have grown Time has past Moments moved on But that don’t mean The love we have for each other is gone I’m here still holding on Clinging to hope Wishing on that star That my prayer isn’t that far Off from being answered And if it does come full light That I to you am some kind of cancer A thorn in your side You can’t bear Don’t fear Those maybe words I don’t want to hear But I would have to for me to move on To me though our hearts and souls Will always have that special bond However it’s you that has to take control Push and repress the memories we share You see it’s you that has to let me know You have to tell me so You’re gonna have to say goodbye Until then when you really want is known This time I don’t want to let you go