This Isnt Who I Was

If i fell apart, would i really die If you found out i got hurt, would you even cry Why am i alive, i wish that i could die, The horrid pain of death, needles in my spine This death that i speak of, i think i’ll call it life My chest is so heavy, it’s become hard to smile Could i wish for anything, i’d wish away the pain There’s not much i can say, that will not leave a stain My mind is an enigma, the void is getting bigger I’d rather be the figure, that wasn’t in the picture. We spend hours on the net, searching for what we cannot get, The quotes and the sayings to let out what’s inside our heads. But time and time again. I seem to get lost for words My ladder has been broken Back to this world of hurt. I really want to try, but what if it’s all a lie Is loving you, as i do, really worth my time All the other people, closer than i am Ask yourself, do they, love you like i can I could stop it if i wanted, but the fact is i don’t I would tell you that i love you, but i'm afraid you wont I have time, too much, my life’s become a drag You said my life is care-free; my emotions are just a rag To be thrown around, used to cleanse, touched by unclean hands And the one that has to wash it, wishes that they didn’t If that person is you, i’d rather just stay hidden. You said i am your love, have faith, you are mine But why wont you tell me, are your worries the same as mine In the place that we are in, all we have is time But when we meet, we pass, not even a sign All of this though you are on my mind I wish that this would change, i want to be with you for life And one day, just maybe, i can call you my wife We can tell tales of today, our confusion and our strife. Would you take me over him, or should i take the knife. But the old me is not dead, just in a coma Come closer, wake him up with your aroma Embrace him in your suppleness, its about our only wish