there's hope at the end - 2

last night i sensed its presence the walls were slowly closing in and soon i know i'll feel like I can't breathe it's clenching down on my heart the coldness spreading draining out the final drops of joy i feel its weight settle on my chest on my shoulders i feel its heavy chains tangle around my feet around my arms so very heavy leaden i hear its siren song echo in my mind always in my mind i can't resist it for much longer with every step i take and every thing i do i hear it louder i hear it closer its merciless and endless commentary why, who cares, it doesn't matter life is just boundless pain and work and then we die so what's the point are you prepared to live this way for the next half a century? i try to push it away you try to keep it at bay i try to drown it out you try to hear it out i try to scream at it you try to empathize with it it makes no difference the siren song continues of its own volition until such time when it shuts off take heart, my love, it always does it has a mind of its own so let it play let it become the background the meaningless familiar din be comfortable with it be gentle with yourself ask for a hug do not believe its fictions seek out other stories and joy will surely find you sometimes in unexpected places you will get through today you'll see! and then tomorrow will be better **** and so it was