The Unexpected

Someday, maybe I will be unshakeable unmovable steadfast- I tell myself. So secure in myself and the present moment and all the little minuscule things that I control That nothing and no one will ever shake me up unsettle or disturb me ever again... Like a monk breathing out, breathing in sheltered in stillness empty of self and full of wholesome mantras tranquility and peace- I tell myself. For I've had practice in the unexpected- and practice makes perfect, right? Unexpected pregnancy, alarming illnesses accidental death, unlikely friendships abrupt financial ruin, sudden second-chances unexpected successes and unexpected failures... Come to think of it- none of it was ever what I expected, at all.