The Ugliest Girl In the World

I’m the ugliest girl in the world I hide on the outside With make up With curls When I’m thin people like me Congratulations! What an achievement For abandoning myself When I’m fat, people like me Ugliness peeks through So witty! So smart! So talented! Thank god she’s fat! In between Mother says with mother bias What a pretty face Father says with male bias I’m an 8 out of 10 Thanks, Dad Lovers know what I want to hear But won’t say It will seem false It will be false After all I am the ugliest girl in the world Lovers compliment others Words never said to me For I am ugly If I had the right kind of knife I’d carve an X into my face Diagonal Right to left Diagonal Left to right X-ed out Then there would be no question It’s the wondering that kills me Maybe, maybe it doesn’t matter Maybe, maybe I’m pretty This woman lives in me, somewhere Battling my ugly Battered by my ugly In me, two people who despise each other No one sees my wounds Agonizing wars, b*tches brawl If I had the right kind of knife I’d cut them right out of my chest Leaving a void Where the pain was A void My ugly pain MY ugly Where would I be without my ugly?