The Struggle

New year, new me But it's hard to stop No alcohol but I'll have a pint No drugs 3 for 100 They say break the cycle But the bike won't turn Be strong they say, But the fight is hard I want to stop, but the light won't pop Lines on a plate, I'm with my mate Out for a pint, ends up nights Life feels amazing it's never gonna stutter Reality is you'll be in the gutter Wages are in I'm feeling flush Skint in a week for chasing a rush Family at home feeling the love You lost it all for the high like a dove But it's all okay I've all my mates No mate you don't, it's nothing but hates You believe they all love you They've got your back But when the time really comes You've nothing but jack Bag after bag im in control Behind the wheel car starts to roll Bottles and bottles out in the bin Clink after clink it's only a drink Deeper and deeper you fall down the hole Darker and darker you've lost your soul You look for the light, you feel your fight Every decision never feels right Your busting for help, but to scared to show Hopefully one day the confidence will grow It comes to and end your all on your own Every penny you had totally blown You've lost all those mates, lonely and sad All those memories the good and the bad You reach out for help and come out with it all You hit that thing hard, wide and so tall You never believed that it would all start to fall Arm round the shoulder A shoulder to cry Please let it end I promise to try