The Secrets I Hide

Convinced I am I'll never be me again The one who created the pain The one who had so much to gain But lost out in the end To a race against time A figment of me Just a pigment of hope Lie down at night No sleep to make up I wander about Through today's events I worry about tomorrows as well There is no real balance When I am always off center My mind never shuts down I Whisper I can't do this anymore Can't continue to live in a past unforgiven I am stuck here in the void Can't trust myself to let my guard down Feel only alone is how I will live out this life Scroll through the pictures on facebook dating All so many choices but none ever get back Am I just a lost cause Confined to all I fear It's a stain that won't wash out Am I really that unlovable Is the cover just to torn to turn the page So much unsuriness so little dedication To branch out away from past thoughts It's alarming and endangering Have I become that lost soul Only time knows All the secrets I hide.