Richard Lamoureux Poet Prose

The Screen Flickers

Thoughts flood my mind 
when I’m alone
Close to my computer 
I am sin prone
These flames of lust 
they flicker within me
Images intertwined 
begging me to see
This empty eroticism 
promises of ecstasy 
I know this is my prison
still I don’t want to be set free

Curved and supple 
together bodies mingle
My eyes long to breath in
a promised tingle
This inward hunger 
begs me to enter
That feeling of heat 
grows within my centre
Firm supple images
naked and slender
No drugs or alcohol 
but it’s still a bender

With my physical release
a strangled scream
Within a moment
emotions extreme
Shame overtakes me
eyes look away
Temporarily satiatiated 
but I’m far from okay

I can’t forgive myself
and I’m too ashamed to pray.


Is this just a male issue? I’m curious to hear your thoughts. This poem was written as a result of meeting with a men’s group and the subsequent conversation.

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Kurt Ravidas August 30, 2019 at 3:41 PM A person feels ashamed if he does something bad. Okay. Does a handworker do bad? Maybe. But what if we compare him, say, to a rapist? Lust drives them both, but what a different outcome. It turns out that poor handworker is not so bad. Feel free to pray, buddy, just don't forget to wash your hands first) The problem is that bad is relative, like any moral judgment. As we can see, there are even gradients of bad) Richard Lamoureux August 30, 2019 at 4:45 PM Ha ha, an amusing response. ;0)

Maria Williams June 11, 2018 at 3:26 AM Perhaps this might answer the question. Profound thoughts by Sadguru....Maria https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dMqXHQX-H4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZAkce5dE9M Richard Lamoureux June 11, 2018 at 8:24 AM Thanks Maria, I will check it out.

Darlene De Beaulieu June 8, 2018 at 1:57 PM Hello Richard, do not be ashamed to pray. Prayer is for everyone. Have a nice day my friend. Darlene De Beaulieu June 9, 2018 at 1:14 PM Glad to hear it. Richard Lamoureux June 8, 2018 at 2:20 PM No worries, I pray daily.;0)

Honestly J.T. May 27, 2018 at 10:36 PM Interesting poem on pornography -JT Richard Lamoureux May 27, 2018 at 10:48 PM Thanks J.T.

Nette Onclaud May 11, 2018 at 4:41 PM immediate self-gratification is the staple of this generation and many are afflicted with this psychological ' disease..' may we be more vigilant and encourage especially the youth to indulge in life-giving pursuits, rich... hugggs Richard Lamoureux May 11, 2018 at 6:26 PM I think that has been the case for many generations. The difference I think is easy access. Thanks for adding your thoughts. A big hug back to you Nette.

Andrea Dietrich May 10, 2018 at 6:47 PM I guess I am not like the other women here. I am not drawn to pornography at all. It repulses me. When I see women on comedy shows oohing over strip tease men, I find it comical how they are trying to act like men. I admit that if I am into a really good movie with a great love scene, I can feel turned on by it. I enjoy the feeling of love or romance behind it. I could say a lot more (it may be the way my sisters and I were raised) but I'll stop here! I think Arturo had a great comment. Richard Lamoureux May 10, 2018 at 7:09 PM I have to say for myself I prefer erotica as the story/mystery and relationship is more exciting than just watching people go at it. I think many women would agree with you summation. Thanks for adding your thoughts.

Vijay Pandit May 10, 2018 at 3:33 PM Kudos Richard for writing about this..I think Arturo best described the human reaction to impulses. Everyone has them, some control better than others. You venture into themes most don't dare to..compliments Richard! Richard Lamoureux May 10, 2018 at 5:02 PM Thanks Vijay, I was hoping it wasn’t considered in bad taste. At first I wasn’t sure due to limited response. Thanks for adding your perspective.

Maria Williams May 10, 2018 at 9:24 AM In answer to your question Richard, I commend your courage to write and ask this question. It's an involuntary natural response both men and women feel in erotic situations, but don't admit due to conditioning. Nature made both genders to attract - No one should feel guilt or shame - Nor would Nature expect it. I agree with Arturo about the chocolates though - however, over indulgence would take away the thrill - perhaps then it can be called an addiction if it interferes with real relationships - but who's to judge!...Maria :) Richard Lamoureux May 10, 2018 at 9:34 AM Well expressed Maria. I think your comment is thoughtful and sensitively expressed.

Arturo Michael May 9, 2018 at 1:39 PM If the chocolate's sweet you'll eat morning noon and night...it's a human thing, how to keep in check, is relative...but nothing must control...All the best Richard Richard Lamoureux May 9, 2018 at 3:06 PM Interesting way to express, thanks Arturo.

Alexis Y. May 9, 2018 at 1:37 PM Hi Richard, This is not just a gender issue . I don't know if it is as intense but females ( my own experience ) suffer from this addiction as well. I can definitely relate to the overwhelming feeling of shame one feels afterwards.PS, answering your question made me feel vulnerable and free at the same time. I enjoy reading about "real" issues:-) Alexis Richard Lamoureux May 10, 2018 at 9:36 AM For me I was unable to do it on my own. I prayed for the allure and desire to go away. Ironically my sex life improved. Alexis Y. May 9, 2018 at 9:56 PM My days of this issue /addiction is in the past but I will never forget the guilt and the shame:-) Alexis Richard Lamoureux May 9, 2018 at 3:08 PM Good for you for being brave enough to respond and might I say respond eloquently. Thanks for your visit.

Tom Cunningham May 9, 2018 at 12:55 PM It sounds like this person has a terrible addiction for pornography, I think it devalues women to just be seen as some plaything. Strange thing though, I think it was Google that said pornography tops the list on search engines. Tom. Richard Lamoureux May 9, 2018 at 1:05 PM It’s something most people won’t talk about. It wouldn’t be such a big business if not for people being attracted to it. Statistically it starts at a very early age with more women also watching.

Eileen Manassian May 9, 2018 at 12:12 PM Richard, addictions are not gender specific. I'm glad you mentioned other forms of addiction in the poem. People tend to consider some addictions more "acceptable" than others...however, all addictions are dangerous. Males perhaps struggle with this type of addiction more than women, but they are not alone in it. Powerful write... Richard Lamoureux May 9, 2018 at 12:22 PM Thanks Eileen, a thoughtful response.