The Painful Pedestal

You’re on your own pedestal and I can’t reach out to you You’re standing tall while others fall behind you too Sorry if I let you down, but you rise from the ashes somehow You ride the flames of your passion while I drown in rain anyhow I’m the best failure you’ve ever had You’re the worst success and it’s sad That you had to depart from the light You’re like a lifeguard without her might Without you, I can’t breathe anymore My weak lungs are enflamed and sore The sky of rainfall collide from bitter clouds and I’m drowning in my lonesome soul I’m confident that you’ll get out of darkness and enter the crowds of happy people My chest is sore from a heart beating evermore — Open up the corridor of my heart’s ability to adore you as you are I’m trying my best to seek peaceable hope in store — What more can you ask for? Another remedy to undo your scar? Torn into pieces and still, I rise to meet my end once more, once more Could’ve sworn you had me breathless against my will to the core, to the core, to the core Trapped within this chamber of hell and I insanely call out to you in vain You zapped the energy out of me in this cell, then I fell down the drain No one can tell that I was a monster back then Neither can they tell I can never be a ten again Reminding myself of the past mistakes I’ve made I’m sorry I threw at you so much hatred-bitter shade Envy weighed me down till it made me feel incomplete Now, I’m barely trying to get back on my weary feet You held so much abominable regret and I got you so upset I apologize for the times we accidentally or purposely met I’ll take responsibility for my heartless actions by satisfying positivity to the max Have mercy on me, for this pain is uncontrollable…it’s so difficult for me to relax