the original source of my pain and suffering

space is where i stare into a throbbing headache seems to be what is on the menu i am lying to the best thing that has ever happened to me all because my extreme inner fear became my bully i guess i was in God's Good Graces at a particular moment i got away with a lie that could have been devastating miraculously i have a chance to save face completely straight, though bent the lesson being taught by leaps and bounds was definitely hesitating eyesight lost each day hearing following right behind coming clean is in the form of paid bills and importantly paid rent i conquered my greatest bully....once again at the expense of ME