The One I Can't Recognize

Have you ever looked in the mirror And not recognized the person you saw Sat back down in fear Lost your breath in awe But not the good kind at all Like your confused Like this person isn’t you This caked on makeup, dyed hair, showing skin person isn’t true This isn’t me I wish when I was younger I could have seen I don’t want to grow up I want to stay little me Have you ever talked about yourself with someone else and forgot who you were talking about Like the sound of your own name doesn’t even sound right It’s something you continue to recite Your nickname you pretend to hate is more accurate Savannah is something I accept Sav is the person I’ve shaped myself into Maybe not on purpose But the old me makes me nervous I’m going to continue to fake it all Convincing me otherwise is like talking to a wall If it’s who I am now Then I should learn to be proud I’ve blossomed into a new person than I was 2 years ago It's cringy I know But I look back at pictures and observe each individual change See if I can find where the switch was flipped And it’s strange but there is no certain age or stage that I can pick out I can’t find just where I decided to become the one I can’t recognize