The One I Can't Recognize

Have you ever looked in the mirror 
And not recognized the person you saw
Sat back down in fear
Lost your breath in awe

But not the good kind at all
Like your confused 
Like this person isn’t you
This caked on makeup, dyed hair, showing skin person isn’t true

This isn’t me 
I wish when I was younger I could have seen
I don’t want to grow up
I want to stay little me

Have you ever talked about yourself with someone else and forgot who you were talking about
Like the sound of your own name doesn’t even sound right
It’s something you continue to recite

Your nickname you pretend to hate is more accurate
Savannah is something I accept
Sav is the person I’ve shaped myself into 
Maybe not on purpose
But the old me makes me nervous

I’m going to continue to fake it all
Convincing me otherwise is like talking to a wall

If it’s who I am now 
Then I should learn to be proud
I’ve blossomed into a new person than I was 2 years ago
It's cringy I know

But I look back at pictures and observe each individual change
See if I can find where the switch was flipped
And it’s strange but there is no certain age or stage that I can pick out
I can’t find just where
I decided to become the one I can’t recognize
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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