The New Me


“looking back, I’m ashamed of what I was
I’m different now, though not without flaws
Each crest becomes a trough, as we move on
God slowly steers soul towards a new dawn”

I was a dusty carpet always ignoring abuse, it was being piled 
never differentiating between a real friend and an opportunist 
I always made sure I gave others more then I gave myself, 
my heart was always a blood bath and my soul hurt like hell 

At the age of thirty six I began my journey with a therapist  
who found the little girl in me and helped her rise again  
Locked inside a suitcase at six, the world to me was closed  
I started living again, this time I became my own best friend 

I learned to say no when I meant no and yes when I meant yes  
there were adjustments along the way, with family and friends 
but sooner or later they came to realize I had seen a new dawn
and I wasn't going to be used as a runner for their dirty feet 

God slowly steered my heart towards a wholesome love of self,  
after freeing my soul I embraced the fire and began living again.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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Empress Avatar
September 15, 2024 at 1:27 PM
Dear sweet rose, what a sincere poem this is! I felt this! And its never easy letting go of inner child that needs healing. And we learn to set boundaries a bit later in life. Its jus been few years since i learned that too! And i must say i absolutely love how open you are here and i know what it feels like to keep giving and how it is when soul hurts! This is a poem that will stay in my mind for very long! Sending you light always!
Onclaud Avatar
September 15, 2024 at 8:38 AM
relishing the transformative essence of your being penned in a beautiful way, vie!
DiMino Avatar
September 15, 2024 at 7:52 AM
Great, inspirational advice. Everyone can rise. Our great apostles, especially, Paul, was a persecutor of Christians, a murderer of Christians -- We are more in control of our own lives...and less in control of our own lives.... When God chooses it does not matter what we say or think. His will will be done! You seem very loving, spiritual~ and Brave! God molds us in ways we do not always understand, concerned with the end results more than the beginning and middle. In my humble opinion. Just what I sense in my heart after a life of great turmoil and seeking. All, please, hang in there. There is greater life to be had. Wear Your Light Armor of Christ.
Williams Avatar
September 15, 2024 at 1:50 AM
I was truly inspired by your insightful poem dear Vie. Alas we all make mistakes , I have made many, yet I feel it has all brought me to the place I'm in now. 'I started living again, this time I became my own best friend'. Ditto. Love it and a fave...Hugs
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