The Monster Within

Sometimes I am a confident queen Other times I am so overcome with anxiety that I hide away "I'm fine" is the biggest lie I have ever told and nobody seems to know I am stuck between wanting someone to hug me tight and say "I know you're not" and hoping that I fall apart before I get immensely hurt Battling the sorrow alone is a constant struggle but I continue to do it because no one else should feel like I do. Feeling like a vessel of a demon trying to escape is how I will talk about it Tearing me apart from the inside out, never ceasing except to give me one good day among the bad. He has found a way to quiet the monster within myself I don't know how but he did My soul aches for him to be around and I am sure he knows it Being clingy is not my wish, but I cannot help it He is like a drug and I am addicted The impulses and need keep growing because I love him in more ways that I thought possible and perhaps one day I will tell him and let him take the demon One day I will allow him to help me when I can no longer save myself.