The Long Show

I can still feel the weight dragging under my feet And my body pressing down as if it is trying to compete Something perfound is moving around me and it is making me feel unhappy.I tried to dig deep to connect with it but the deeper I get something keeps crawling into my flesh.I want to escape from this terrible show but I don't know which way to go.I want to escape from this boisterious show and go in the way that my spirit is directing me to go. My heart is drenched with sadness and my spirit no longer can bear it.Time is creeping up slowly underneath my skin when we have to play the final tune, and wait for the bell to ring at noon and my soul will be free when it escape from this awful misery, then time will appear and the moon will dissapear. Here I am standing in the boiling sun getting ready for the final run, the heat is seeping underneath my flesh and I can hardly catch my breath.The heat is strong and it is moving all over the land.I don't know which way to go but in my heart I know that I am getting ready to go. The east or the west, the north or the south, it dosn't matter as long as I get to go. I sometimes get this terrible stiffness when something miraculous is going to happen, it is a feeling that connects with something that is deeper than me inside of me.I can barely whisper a word when my spirit is crying above me, it is in search of a peaceful destiny. Yes it is the feelings that I often get when I know that deep down in my soul something that is bigger than me is trying to reach out to me, and that quiet voice inside with a message that is so divine is whispering words of comfort.I tried to absorb it and I tried to embrace it. It is that part of me that is connected to you when I am trying to reach out to you and then the clouds began to swirl around casting away all fears and doubt and strengthing the way.I am in the center with no special grounds, who knows what will happen when we hear the the big sound.It is one against a million and two agaist a billion, I should have left long ago to get ready for the start of the show but I am still here waiting with my hands on my knees for them to come and release me.And when the day is done ,and the battle is won,we will meet on the other side with a mystical surprise.At that moment, my spirit will come alive and I will finally get what is rightly mine.Coffee or tea I would rather have a cup of tea on a sunlit balcony.