The Irony

You bury my hurt and my dreams Stave me in the back and expect me not to bleed You rather torment me then to leave You love to put the blame on me Your actions are the reaction because of me? I'm acting out before I think But In my brain there's a logical explanation for everything I don't expect you to understand me Been with you for a decade And you still act like you don't know me taking medications just to sleep headphones over my ears to block out everything shaking because I'm expecting you to swing My fault I play the victim for everything Let me close my eyes let me blink Now your in my head and I'm a whore for taking a picture of me spending hours in the parking lot I just need to think I don't have the energy to argue with you Or listen to you scream at me regrets of going home I cant change the way you think of me You already have it in your head That I can't think on my own You put me in this box knowing that I'm grown Slowly suffocating me Staring at me while I'm trying to breathe back together but not mentally holding grudges?? maybe I still haven't forgave you for everything Remembering I wanted this marriage thing But I have to learn the hard way My scenario for everything Should have listen to my mom Looked up now I'm alone where did all my friends and family gone burned all my bridge's keeping him at home The Irony, so bad I wanted that family My reality, feeling like I have A demon at home assigned to me