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The Instincts of Innocence

I reflect upon a word - Innocence To understand more fully what it means, I think of what it conjures up for me - childhood times - those times when I believed all I was taught from silly things like Santa Clause to sacred things like God and true religion. The way I accepted and then reacted to my mother’s definitions of what was wrong and right I think is how I might define my instincts ….. of innocence. Having learned well right from wrong in my youth, my instinct was to feel shock or dismay when I saw others doing things I deemed immoral, especially when the doers were those that I looked up to inside the parameters of my own church. However, my tolerance for others’ evil doing increased year by year, Even in my youth, I never judged them outright. Those girls and boys that slept around through high school were judged inside the silence of my mind. I never shunned them. A few more decades passed. Religion’s walls around me were wearing down. I never did cement the cracks in my walls’ foundation as did some others in my community - others who sought to strengthen their own walls with instincts of innocence espoused inside the sanctity of chapels. When was it I let my childhood instincts totally crumble? Generally more tolerant than many of my friends that I grew up with, I saw “other” people with eyes that rarely blinked at what I deemed to be audacity. Those with different customs, or with strange new religions I have accepted in my life and tried hard not to judge. Some things, however, I cannot tolerate. Societies that put their women down and people who abuse the weak, emotionally as well as physically, Never will those actions I accept. Now I ponder this: Are the instincts of innocence simply tied to what we learn as children? I have seen select groups of people shunned by both the religious and the non-religious simply for the fact that they are different! And from whence comes the idea in a child’s mind to make him think that someone should be shunned? Do our instincts of innocence simply come from that time of life when we looked up to our parents as our Gods, accepting their every teaching as Gospel and feeling fear to ever go against them? Many things we learn are for our good, and societies would turn to chaos without some guidelines akin to the ten commandments. On the other hand, as a child, I was innocent. My instinct was to trust in strangers. Then I learned better. My instinct was to cringe but say nothing the time I was inappropriately touched. Thankfully, since then, I have learned better. In some instances, I would say, our instincts of innocence should be laid to rest! For a long while now, I’ve been seeing a small but significant segment of the population that differs in their sexual orientation or preference. Those who taught me in my youth that I ought to be as meek as a child still point today to ancient Scriptures as the way for all to keep their innocence. But my walls have fallen down. I stand here in the rubble unsure that I've done right or wrong in letting many of my childhood ways of thinking collapse so utterly. The instincts of my thinking adult mind tell me that I am not wrong to stand with those who want their right to the pursuit of their own happiness despite the fact their actions are denounced by the very teachings on which I was raised. Can we ever really lose completely those thoughts developed from our early teachings, which led to the instincts of our childhood innocence? At times, I cannot be completely at ease in what I have let go of and in who I have become, for the instincts of innocence still dwell in the caverns of my mind. HM in "The Loss of An Innocent Mind" Contest Now for Poet Destoyers A's 'Deep ( 001)' Poetry Contest

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Date: 4/13/2018 10:17:00 PM
Such deep reflection on morals and innocence. A beautiful introspective write that you so generously share, Andrea. I'm not sure why our poems did not place in this contest but it was worth the introspection.
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Date: 11/14/2015 9:46:00 PM
Wonderful poem! You are so talented :) -LU xxx *smiles*
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Date: 9/11/2015 4:49:00 PM
Andrea, congrats for your a Honorable Mention placement in Justin's contest.. I thought your winner was quite good!
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Date: 9/9/2015 6:25:00 PM
Andrea, this has the tone of honesty throughout. This is a quandary for all of us. Reflection and observation are key, but we have biases that are just part of normal life and thinking. I really like how you have been tolerant. To me that is more like a construction than a demolition of your spirit. Done well you have.
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Date: 9/5/2015 12:56:00 PM
Andrea Dietrich , Congratulations :) On your wonderful Honorable Mention. ~SKAT~
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Date: 9/5/2015 9:41:00 AM
lemme go comment here some more-- just because it's your birthday! I really do like your last 3 stanzas here, ha, speaking of walls... you are so right with what you ask here, once instilled in us, it can be quite hard to fully break free from it. Thanks for telling me about this poem of yours, it's been a pleasure to read, sweetie. Happy birthday!
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Date: 9/5/2015 9:38:00 AM
As for this poem, this is definitely an introspective one that makes me look into myself as well, and wonder how my "instincts of innocence" came about-- quite tricky if you ask me. Instinct somehow meaning for me something that is inborn, and not taught. Then again, how does one know, if not instilled in some manner? Your poem takes me to places, and I think that you wrote of it well, and yes there's so much that can be tackled on this topic, but so hard indeed to completely put into words.
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Date: 9/5/2015 9:35:00 AM
Just got done lighting up your candle, and singing you a birthday song, sweetie pie! Happy Happy birthday to a wonderfully talented and lovely friend! I thank you for being one of my oldest friends from Soup. I truly am blessed. Thank you for being my friend through all these years-- it makes me smile knowing that you are my friend through everything. Even if we never met, we still have that good friendship going. Sending you much love and hugs, dear friend! Maligayang bati (happy birthday!!) <3
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Date: 9/5/2015 1:27:00 AM
Congratulations on your win with this magnificent wrote Andrea! You laid your soul bare in this much deserved winning piece my friend, excellently expressing your views. I especially loved your last two stanzas. 7
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Date: 9/4/2015 9:16:00 PM
Andrea, a difficult piece for you. Obviously something that you have been struggling with. The poem is powerful and beautifully written but the real strength in it is your ability to write it and share it with others. My heart goes out to you.
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Date: 9/4/2015 3:56:00 AM
And back again with big congrats on ur superb win n another read!
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Date: 9/4/2015 3:56:00 AM
Cont... Oh yes that child before he got to know there are muslims and catholics... There are rich and poor,smart or dumb... Guess if I can love like that child than its worth than all the bible chapters I ever read in my teens...Its all about love .This is a favourite .
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Date: 9/4/2015 3:50:00 AM
Andrea,as I was reading your powerful post..I wished I was able to write something as good re what I was taught to believe in,what O believe in and how I see things..but when it comes to such topics O need to say so much yet never truely can. Andrea,I do come from a background where religion matters a lot as so do morals,yet as I grew up that what matters most more than reading the bible is by living it,with my weaknesses and faiths.I want to be that child before the braonwashing& love like him.
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Date: 9/4/2015 12:02:00 AM
How lovely Andrea, great take! Gl in contest!
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Date: 9/3/2015 8:34:00 PM
G'day Andrea... I hope you understand how good this verse is - bloody brilliant - Lindsay
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 9/3/2015 8:57:00 PM
I'm so glad somebody thinks so!!! Whether it is good or not, You are a sweetie to say so.
Date: 9/3/2015 4:55:00 AM
such an introspective, lovely offering, andie... innocence is the purity of your inner core!.. huggs
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Date: 9/3/2015 12:07:00 AM
Hello Andrea, a self-searching piece here, the thing despite all, we only see facets of whole life, I understand we will never reach utopia in the flesh, and see many who live 'other' lifestyles as you put it, and 'freely' have attempted suicide many times, so where is real happiness? you recount of being assailed at some point, I cannot know how or what circumstances were there, I guess we will see as time goes on how & lives are affected by the way society changes as to 'utopia's' attaining'
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Andrea Dietrich
Date: 9/3/2015 1:13:00 AM
yes, and I hate writing on this kind of stuff because I really don't know how to put it all into words. I don't think "innocence" is the right word. but it's that kind of thing you can't put your finger on. Not my usual writing topic. I should make it my last time!!Regarding happiness, I feel happier when not expected to live up to religious standards (and I don't do any terrible things anyway). I guess that makes me "weak" in the eyes of the super religious. I don't know. One day we will all know the answers!