The Impossible .. Now Possible

Feeling like the love i had was impossible to break in too many pieces as i see it in front of me. Hating myself for allowing those silly wordsI LOVE YOU to sink into my heart insted of my mind letting my self become apart of some kind of game your playing.Loving the loyalty i once had to myself to now feeling feeling like the only loyalty i truly had was to you. How could i allow it to get this far so deep to where living without you is not an option. the impossible has now become the possible.the world that i once knew only revolved around me has been destroyed and now unable to be put back as one are you happy now knowing you achieved your goal of getting me to fall in love and allow my walls of insecure ways to be broken down.Do you get the pleasure of knowing feeling the weight of knowing you wont always be there puts a hold on my life . It if does i give you your credits of successfully getting it to happen.Knowing things will never be back as they were now and scared a little because i dont honestly know how to handle the truth that im in love and that this time around my heart probably wont be broken. I dont try to on purpose but seem to always cause you pain . i feel that sometimes if i push you away then i can worry less about about being hurt again.I feel wrong for what i have done but i dont know any other way to make my self face reality that maybe just maybe you actually do LOVE me for me flaws and all .I am probably looked as silly and not worthe being with in your eyes i dont blame you i blame myself maybe once i get over the fact love doesnt mean you have to be hurt first to get it then i could except the fact that the love i have been reaching out for has been in the front of me the whole time THE IMPOSSIBLE HAS NOW BECOME THE POSSIBLE