The Hardships of Honesty - Neither Will I

I often surprise many people in many ways With the words I say…with the actions I make… It’s extraordinary how many seek high praise With the words they say…with the actions they fake… Neither will I… Assume the worst in people in general Will you hear my cry Of a thousand cries combined? Not at all? Frustrated by the insanity of our lives We are bothered bees in their busy hives If I sway away from the truth and be led astray, I pray it won’t last long…I will live another day… Neither will I… Live another day with you in mind Wingless and dry Dampen my silhouette of glory find Long live knowledge from the Word of Life with love above all I am fixated on my downfalls, completely jaded by your ignorant grace I am glad to say all is doing well for the most part…I'm on the top roll-call Embrace the tribulations at hand and be brazen without a doubtful trace Neither will I… Embrace the abominations I have committed long ago So low and high… I know that I was worthless and weak, grazing to and fro Wandering aimlessly into the night What turned out to be darksome discouragement Neither will I be disheartened by dismissed courage I long for the uprising of the light To guide me along the way with encouragement I will follow your lead with debris under the bridge I will either borrow your might or become my own Knight However, if I am vacant and hollow like your ever-glowing victory, I might fall into the gravity of my demise with all its might In spite of all that, I will have faith that all will be alright frankly And…I feel somewhat empty inside and I don’t know why strangely Now, I am staring daydreamingly into your gaze endearingly I want someone to lean on, but I need more than sympathy I am haunted by the shadows of the past and its vile iniquity Neither will I…will I… Be tortured and ashamed entirely By your begrudging eye Uncanniness and unhappiness – you and me So, concentrate on the road and never go back to where we used to be… His Spirit of serenity is my abode that will ultimately give you sight of sincerity I know you have roamed so far…there’s no where to flee, so save me Your senseless words are still arrows that pierce my inner being…possibly… Neither will I Be pierced by your spears of shimmering shadiness I want to die Alive in your throne of your unchanging lack of radiance Instead, I hesitate and sigh in irreplaceable relief I won’t hate on you for your selfish grief I am immensily happy for your joys' sake alone I will always believe in you, even if It’s not shown Neither will I Cease from believing in you – no trust will do – Despite the lie That rue, angst and guilt wage inside you too Relieve the sorrow from my scorching lips of fury Oh, please don’t hurt me anymore by further injury Your pride of past humility is making our hearts thump…in every road, there’s a bump My appreciation of future goals and past accomplishments won’t lead me to the dump Neither will my goals and accomplishments Be something similar to yours Neither will I submit to your sly resentments Change are challenging chores Run-on sentences and mindless shenanigans brew in my mind again Thoughts and situations burn in me anger and embarrassment that embark against me The dawn will make me move on till the dusk reminds me of where I’ve been Tell me you care and you understand me wholeheartedly…frankly, that’s what I don’t see I won’t be deceived by all the grays of your lies I can’t be falling into the trap of denials and lullabies Goodbye won’t mend my soul of saying 'hello' to happiness Come to think of it, I am in this heap of ruins, sparked by madness Neither will I Be engulfed in your indulgence of arrogance Trust in you is a lie That will always cluster in our remembrance Inspire me to sing the tune of tranquility At the brink of excellent, delightful ecstasy Yes, I surprise people at every angle because I am curious and intelligent I will not be blind by following others' in temporary trust…It’s hope-negligent Neither will I Drop my weapons and shields that protect me from you that guarded me true I believed in you, can’t deny Sorry, again, for misplacing our delicately desired deeds like a lonesome shoe I am far from a genius' brilliance I am near some form of resilience Destiny is nowhere to be found when I am held down Let me be me for once or I will weave my smile into a frown You are precious as an emerald stone from the majestic, mighty mountains I am in marvel every time you reveal to me your faithful frenzy of fervor fountains That, my friend or foe, is true But, I am not ardent like you Neither will I Be as ardent in authentic cheer I will not cry With fear accompanied by a tear I am here Hear me out My dear, You lead me to your route Of harmful doubt and about I do fear… You hardened not only one ear, But the other keen ear…as it will appear when the end of days draw near… I am terrified by the fact that you doubted me For the longest, I’ve been put down for feeling free So, let me say this, I am sorry for your loss of prudent vitality You do you for now on and I will hold my horses immediately I am eager for what lies ahead I am meandering in utter dread Neither will I Deny it or even try To erase the memories That we held dear for years You are a shattered tease… Drowning me in ancient tears Let me fall if I must make a fall Let me stand tall if I must stand tall Don’t strand me in the wilderness on my knees Don’t abondon me, oh dear God, and do as you please Neither will He Abondon you, you see? Stand tall and be The best of you selflessly Freeze time and the distress that chimes in every now and then I am travelling half-naked through the drylands of disdain again Hold me gently and push me softly into the breeze of at-ease With me, you will be growing with your beloved trees of possibilities Don’t sear me once more with your muffled murmurs Of your magma-felt misery…it deprives me of cures… It won’t help me to endure the engulfing endeavors of yesterday It won’t even rescue me from the waters of my wretched way The way I chose… It scars me forever It’s a poetic prose Of a happily-ever-never Of a miracle that won’t deliver Of a curse that is only a blur Neither will I Mention it to you Well, I can’t lie Deny the lies so true