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image of my father after his debilitating stroke--from my own scrapbook

THE HARDEST GOODBYE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hospital room filled with a sterile hush, beeping machines murmuring with their relentless lullabies. there you lay, my anchor, my compass, wrapped in sheets that felt too white, too clean for the storms we had weathered. your eyes, deep wells of wisdom, speak volumes, yet silence reigns, for you cannot speak. I hold your hands, a map of your life every callus a testament to labor, to love, to the weight of days gone by. your palms once held my dreams, now soft and still, a paradox of strength and fragility. so much I wanted to say, to pour my heart into the silent spaces, to tell you how the world is heavier now. I wanted to tell you~ the sun rose brighter in your laughter, your smile stitched the frayed edges of my soul. Your chest rose and fell, a fragile rhythm, each breath of life slipping through my fingers. I wanted to say, to scream, to weep: "I am here, I love you, please don’t leave me!" the light in your eyes flickered then faded the hardest wave goodbye, a silent crash against the shores of my soul. I pressed my lips to your forehead, the warmth fading, the world outside a blur of colors that no longer mattered. I am left with echoes clinging to my heart~ like the scent of your favorite cologne, the warmth of your spirit, fading but never gone. In dreams, you visit, a tiny beacon in a darkened room; I reach for you, but you dissolve like mist. what remains is the ache of a farewell~ a farewell that lingers like a ghost. the hardest wave goodbye.

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Date: 8/21/2025 7:43:00 PM
'I wanted to scream' --- tears streamed down my face when I read that, Sara.
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Date: 8/21/2025 7:10:00 PM
Oh my Sara, this is so sad, and so very well written, it would have been my fathers 100th birthday had he lived that long, he died 14 years ago at the age of 86, still we remember our fathers always, thanks for writing this
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Date: 8/21/2025 6:57:00 PM
I love that this tribute is a deeply heartfelt love story ~ it is a privilege to be by a loved one's side as they prepare for their final voyage. Lovely poem ~
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Date: 8/21/2025 1:41:00 PM
Beautifully composed poem with striking imagery, dear Sara. Your lovely verse brings solace and warmth, woven with rich and touching metaphors. My deepest condolences to you and your family for this terrible loss.
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Sara Etgen-Baker
Date: 8/21/2025 5:27:00 PM
thank you, dear Sotto, for visiting and for appreciating the imagery and metaphors that gave that feeling of warmth and solace. Grateful, too, for your sincere condolences. hugs from Texas, Sara
Date: 8/21/2025 12:17:00 PM
Incredibly powerful, touching, sad poem Sara! Debx
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Sara Etgen-Baker
Date: 8/21/2025 5:26:00 PM
thank you, sweet Deb. I appreciate your visits and support. You're the best, hugs, Sara
Date: 8/21/2025 7:13:00 AM
I am truly moved by this work of love Sara. Condolences for your loss. :)
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Sara Etgen-Baker
Date: 8/21/2025 5:25:00 PM
thank you, Linda. Grateful you found my poem moving. I appreciate your kind condolences as well, hugs, Sara
Date: 8/21/2025 5:46:00 AM
I can't image how hard that must have been for you and for him. My mother had mini strokes which slowly destroys the brain but are harder to tell that a person has had a stroke. Dementia the end results of this condition. Sara K
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Sara Etgen-Baker
Date: 8/21/2025 5:25:00 PM
thanks for visiting and for commenting, Sara K. Yes, the situation was hard. I appreciate you sharing your personal experiences. Dementia is silent and awkward as it unfolds. Have a blessed evening, Sara B
Date: 8/21/2025 5:45:00 AM
Like you say, the hardest wave~ goodbye. Always more to say, another hug to consciously share -- love is never complete, never finished. So, the relationship remains -- always and forever. To be continued. Blessings my friend. A heartfelt read.
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Sara Etgen-Baker
Date: 8/21/2025 5:23:00 PM
thank you, Joe, for your kind and compassionate comments. They mean a great deal to me. blessings, Sara

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