The End of the Road

No strength to stay the course, it diminished the day the warmth rushed through my veins Behind a shell left powerless and broken, a woman who will never be the same These days so little sun, all I can see is rain Racing thoughts consuming that don't seem like mine, telling me to just end the pain Addiction has forever bound me, Im begging you God break these chains to set me free So tired of being tired, I have no more fight left in me I miss the snuggles and kisses, all of us squished together throughout the night I miss waking up feeling content, the peace of everything being just right I long for that life we called ours, when each other was all we would need I want to rewind and go back, to make the right choice so they'd never be without me If I could only wrap them each in my arms, hold them tight and take all their hurt away I want them to know that I never wanted this life for them, I'm so sorry they paid for my mistakes I hate myself for all the broken promises, all the countless times i let them down I love them more than they will ever know, my life is nothing but emptiness without them around Dear God please answer my prayers, this evil has taken my mind, my body, my soul I need your strength now more than ever, I no longer have control I'm screaming to you, do you hear me? Please Lord I can't do this on my own I want to give up my life Jesus, I've never felt so alone If this is the last battle I fight, the end of the road where I finally lay to rest I hope they understand that I fought with everything I had, until there was nothing left Please carry them through when life becomes too much Remind them I'll always be there, comfort them with knowing I'm watching above Four beautiful blessings I've been given, a love I feel with everything inside of me A gift from above, my whole heart that made my life complete