The End of My Beginning

From the start I was already tired Because of the past that brought me in the cliff of my emotions I gave my all that day I've started loving you Now tell me how can I begin if I'm already at my limit? I'm under a cursed spell that imprisoned my heart That makes me feel precarious when our memories rewind's on my mind And now the vestige of my emotions is shattered into pieces Now tell me how to begin if I don't know how to start? I'm exhausted of trying once more Because I already created a monster that manipulate's my thought I heard voices inside my head that saying I'm a failure Now tell how to begin if me myself is my own enemy? "Us" is just a history now But history will repeats itself and I'm afraid of the consequences I'm frightened of new begginings that is built by false hopes So I will personally end my emotions existence You're the reason why I'm starving for success Now you're the reason why I'm full of failures I'm numb now tell me how to end this nightmare Because I'm already in the end of my beginning