The Drug

Addiction is a hard habit to break at least that is what they say, I never knew how strong it was and the hold it could have on you until the day you looked my way There I was standing all alone, looking for something to feel the void in me to find somewhere that I belonged You reached out to me with your steady hand, and I took a hold of you because I needed someone to help me stand My first hit I was struck I experienced such a high, I never knew that I could feel this way and now I understand why They say that drugs are bad for you because you become dependent on them, well this appears to be true because I craved you time and time again When I didn’t have you that was all I thought about, I needed something to stop the pain to help drown it out You would give me little hits here and there, just enough to pacify me for a while so that I believed that you cared But then I became addicted and you’re all that I could see, I wasn’t happy if I couldn’t touch you, I was in such misery You were my drug of choice the only thing that would make the sadness go away, being wrapped up in your arms would keep the pain at bay Your kiss was so mesmerizing I could never get my fill, but sadly I can never have my drug again and I know that I never will Now I am experiencing the withdrawals and my body is shaking from within, I just need to touch you please make me feel euphoric again Take me from this place to where there is only you and me, help me to heal from this addiction please, you did this to me You got me hooked on you and you made me beg for more, where are you now? Why can’t you help me like before? My head feels like it’s filled with cotton and my heart has turned to stone, I can’t breathe anymore I can’t do this on my own I know for this addiction there really is no cure for me, because the antidote that I need walked away from me Your love was my drug of choice and oh how I miss it so, but I will just be a junkie for the rest of my life strung out searching for the one thing that makes me feel whole. This poem is from my book titled Broken Music, Silent Heart available on Amazon and Kindle. Pen name is Amanda Carroll Kinzer