The Darkness of My Room

I cry in the darkness of my room. So no one can see me hurting. The pain gets worse everyday. I`m hiding because I`m afraid to let you know. Inside I`m crying all the time. But I lie and smile for you. Secretly wishing you knew. I am screaming out for help In my own hopeless mind. I`m trying to fight it on my own, But I can`t fight this alone. Inside I know I can`t. But as stubborn as I am I won`t give up. Acting like every things fine, I smile as you walk by. Who am I protecting? You or myself? I smile for you and no body else. I know if you find out you`ll know that I am weak. You`ll take advantage or turn the other cheek. So I hide. I cry in the darkness of my room. So no one can feel my pain. I know I can`t fight this on my own. But I won`t give up.